Coffee on the Shore Path

Yesterday morning, bright & early (so early in fact that it wasn't even bright yet!), I walked in town & purchased a nice, warm coffee. Then I started walking towards the pier. I sat on bench, overlooking the pier & Margaret Todd (a four-masted schooner which actually sits at the very end of my place of employment). At some point, I received a text. From a dear old friend. Then moments later, the friend called. I rarely feel butterflies anymore, but for just a moment even, I felt a flutter. Once upon a time, when this friend & I were more than just that, I would get sung to. Since he was on a long drive to the Diamond Awards in Branson, MO, he felt the need to sing to someone (to help him stay awake, of course)...&that someone was me. So he sang, & I listened. The sun rose, the waves came in & went back out, &there I sat with my coffee in hand, listening to a sweetheart of my past singing in my ear. Oh, moments. Sweet moments. After verizon let us down twice, I decided to walk down the Shore Path while anxiously waiting a call back.

Here are some more pictures from my sunrise stroll...

Psalm 147:3

He heals the brokenhearted
and binds up their wounds.


I had a nice breakfast with a friend this morning, & on the way back to the apt I passed a church & read this outside on a sign.

I loved seeing this, because it just reminded me that everything I'm going through is temporary. I will surely get through this hard time. With His grace, I will! I will!

Another verse that is calling out to me is Psalm 34:18 -
The LORD is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

Amen.


I also enjoyed a sunrise stroll with my coffee this morning.
Expect pictures as soon as my phone decides to cooperate. =)

& Thank you for all the prayer being sent my way! God Bless! =)



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The End.

So my feelings were leading me in the correct direction.

All of a sudden I have been bombarded with rumors & tales of my EX tryin got pick up other girls already, attempting to sleep with them... one being a friend of mine. Who works with me.

How do you say.... LOW BLOW?!


...To be continued.

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Psalm 37:4 "Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart."

Song of Solomon 1:2
Let him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth— for your love is more delightful than wine.

Oh, the Bible. =) Amazing... & of course, it would be. When I am happy, I go to the Bible for verses that may speak for me when I'm speechless. When I am sad, I go to the Bible for the verses He knows will help me see the bigger picture & cheer me up. When I feel lost, God uses the Bible to help me in finding directions (to the righteous paths!). You get the idea. Thank God for that Bible!

Lately... I have been going to the Bible because I am in the middle of making one of the biggest decisions of my life. This decision will affect my future, my son's future, everyone...everything...

I am not married yet. However, I have a handsome, smart little 10-month old. &My son is just...such a bessing. He is such a joy! For over two years now, I have been trying my hardest to make the best out of the situation that I've gotten myself into. I know relationships are not easy, but love is.

You feel love.
Or you don't.

... and as for my son's dad, we have been together this entire time... but I don't feel love. &Oh Lord knows how badly I want to feel love. He knows! I want to be happy! I want to be with someone less controlling, someone more mature, someone fun yet responsible, someone who my family can accept & sigh with relief for, someone who wants to take care of us, someone who can take care of us, someone who can be a best friend, someone who can respect me, someone who I can trust, someone who knows how to trust inreturn, someone who believes in tough Love (right in the middle - not more tough & not more love), someone... someone who I am afraid does not exist. I fear this unknown, but I also fear that if I never cross this bridge...how will I ever know?

&Another thing, bizarre as this might sound...at this time in my life, I feel like I just want to be alone. I want to figure out who I am now... now that I'm a mom. I want to work on myself as a Christian. I just want to grow into the new, improved, best version of myself. &I just feel like my son's dad will never give me the room I need to grow, & will never get with the program. I'm going one way, & he's going another.

&All I know is this. I want everything that the Bible says about love. I feel like all of those verses will never really mean anything until you can read them & know exactly who that special someone is.


1 Corinthians 13:1-8a and 13
If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails....And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

I will keep praying on this matter, however I am almost certain which path I'm about to turn down.

Advice, tips, opinions? All would be greatly appreciated. =)

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♥My Pink Guitar♥

Oh, it's so freaking cute! :)

After all of the years of wanting & making plans to learn how to play guitar, the days are finally here. The day after my last post, I went to the local music store & purchased my first guitar. A pretty pink one at that! :)

I'm so excited to take this step forward in my life & to learn something new. I believe many great things will come of this. After my fingertips stop bleeding. :)


*PRAYER REQUEST*
June 22nd marks one year since my son's grandma passed away. She battled pancreatic cancer for two years & lost the fight before any of us were able to see her hold him. As you can imagine, my fiance' & his sisters are in a severe state of heartache. Please prayer for this family. I know the Good Lord wants us to rejoice for our loved ones for their entering into Heaven, but He knows we are simply human & rejoicing for this cause is much easier said than done. Thank you! God Bless! :)


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